La Toya not ready to accept Michael's death

LOS ANGELES: La Toya Jackson struggled to accept a lifetime achievement award in honour of her brother MICHAEL at a British music ceremony last month (Sep09) - because she was still struggling to come to terms with his death.

The star attended the Music Of Black Origin (MOBO) Awards in Glasgow, Scotland with sibling Jermaine to accept the King Of Pop's posthumous honour.

But La Toya found herself fighting back tears during rehearsals for the show.

She says, "It was very emotional. I couldn't watch it during rehearsals because it was one of those situations where you really don't want to believe it."

And Jackson admits she still wakes up convinced Michael is alive: "I don't know if I'm living in this bubble where I won't accept it, but I just don't want to. I'm not ready to accept it (his death) yet."