RELATIONSHIPS: Haunting memories of first crush

Kathmandu:

It only takes a minute to develop a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, a day to love someone, but it takes a whole life to forget someone you love.”

Many people, however, say that it is far more difficult to remember something than to forget it. But when this saying applies to someone you love, it usually takes a back seat.

She was the one with whom I had silently fallen in love. One may call it an infatuation as I was 16 then, but she was my first crush. I started to like her when we were in the middle of our Class X year. But I could never ever express my feelings for her.

My friends used to tease me by referring to me by her name and even dared me to go and propose, but I simply could not.

Very soon we were separated as our futures took us on different paths to different destinations. However, looking back I feel I should have expressed my love for her — come what may. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return; but it is even more painful to love someone and not find the cou-rage to put your feelings in words and let that person know how you truly feel.

I still feel that we would have been right for each other. Today I have no option but to lament for a girl who was my first crush. I wish I were able to go back to my school days and express my love for her. I know it’s impossible, and perhaps it will take a lifetime for me to forget her.