Though most of us try to make resolutions with the arrival of each New Year, it is very hard to keep them as the time passes by. Last year, too, the same thing happened.

“Wow, another brand new year has arrived along with brand new resolutions to be kept. Hmmm! I’m definitely going to change for good at least in this New Year”, these thoughts hovered in my mind as I sat down to list my resolutions for New Year 2005.

The first few minutes I went short of resolutions but very soon I found the number of resolutions in my list growing. My resolutions included almost everything concerning me and my life on this planet. I decided to become a good girl by obeying my parents, not watching too much of TV, studying hard and so on and so forth. Believe me these aren’t going to be easy for me.

Before dinner that night, I was talking to my sister about my new resolutions. Suddenly, my mother interrupted, “Why do you have to make resolutions that you cannot keep. I know you can’t do without TV and your resolution about studying hard, I’m afraid, will never be fulfilled.” I challenged my mum that I was determined to live up to my resolutions come what may.

Finally the first of January arrived and it was celebrated with enthusiasm but it also faded away. My resolutions were fresh in my mind but with the increasing number of days I started realising that I had begun to lose track of my goals. Before even some days had elapsed I was back to my usual self. To console myself at that time I had said, “I am not from the West to make resolutions during the English New Year. I got to wait for my own Nepali New Year to make resolutions. I’m a Nepali after all.”

The last week of Chaitra arrived and so did the Nepali New Year. I was ready with my resolutions but this time, too, temptation won over my resolutions.

And guess how? I consoled myself this time again arguing: “Well, it’s not a part of our culture to make resolutions with the onset of New Year. So, I think I have to wait until New Year 2006.” And now, when 2006 has already arrived and has become a couple of days old, and yet again I console myself saying: “No more resolutions’ is my resolution for 2006.”